Personal Growth

Time Feels Different When You Look Back

2026-06-07 by admin 1 Comment

Time is weird.

We live inside of it every single day and somehow it’s still one of the hardest things to wrap your head around. Some days drag forever. Others are gone before you even realized they started. And when you’re in the middle of working toward something, a goal, a better version of yourself, anything, it almost never feels like it’s happening. You wake up, go through the day, go to sleep. Repeat. Nothing seems to change. But that’s the thing about time. It doesn’t announce what it’s doing. It just quietly does it.

Because when you actually stop and look back, the difference is there. The challenges that once felt like they were going to swallow you whole look smaller from a distance. Not because they weren’t real, but because you made it through them. Moments that felt completely ordinary at the time, a random decision, a conversation, a day you almost wrote off, end up being the ones that actually mattered. You were living what would eventually become a memory and you had no idea which parts were going to stick.

So maybe that’s the whole point. You’re not going to feel the growth while it’s happening. You’re not supposed to. You just keep showing up, stay consistent on the days when nothing feels like it’s working, and trust that time is doing something with all of it. It always is.

Why I Started Going Outside More

2026-05-25 by admin Leave a Comment

I used to think I just liked staying inside.

And honestly, sometimes I still do. Staying home is comfortable. You don’t need to spend money, talk to anyone, or really think too much. You just exist in the same space every day and eventually it becomes normal.

But after a while I noticed all my days started feeling identical.

Especially when most of my time was spent looking at some kind of screen.

Recently I’ve been trying to go outside more, even if I don’t actually have plans. Sometimes I’ll just bring my camera and walk around Vancouver for a bit. No destination or anything. Just walking around downtown, taking the train somewhere random, sitting somewhere for a while, then going home.

And weirdly, those small moments started feeling more important to me.

I think being outside makes you notice things again.

The sound of the SkyTrain passing by.
People rushing home after work.
Rain hitting the windows on transit.
Random conversations you overhear for two seconds and never hear again.

Nothing huge happens, but life feels less repetitive.

I also started wanting to record things more.

Not even for content necessarily. More just because I realized how forgettable life becomes when every day looks the same.

A random walk downtown probably feels meaningless right now, but years later it might actually be something I’m glad I filmed.

I think that’s why I’ve started carrying my camera around more often lately.

Not to create some cinematic masterpiece.

Just to remember things a little better.

Why Full-Time Work Feels So Exhausting as a Young Adult

2026-05-11 by admin Leave a Comment

Starting full-time work has been one of the biggest adjustments in my routine recently. If you are learning how to balance work and personal life or wondering why full-time work feels exhausting, you are definitely not alone. Many young adults underestimate how mentally and physically draining a full-time schedule can feel until they actually experience it.

Waking up early, commuting, staying mentally engaged for hours, being “on” throughout the day, and then returning home already feeling drained adds up quickly. Even if the workday goes relatively smoothly, there is still a certain level of energy being constantly spent.

By the time I get home, it sometimes feels like the day is already over.

There are still things I want to do outside of work, personal projects, going to the gym, editing videos, organizing my finances, taking photos, spending time with people, or simply having time to think clearly. But after a full workday, even small tasks can feel much heavier than usual.

That has been one of the biggest adjustments.

You start realizing how valuable your free time actually is.

A few hours in the evening suddenly feels extremely limited. Time that once felt abundant as a student or during lighter schedules now feels much more intentional. If I want to work on something meaningful outside of my job, I have to consciously protect that time.

Otherwise, it is very easy to default into pure recovery mode.

Eat dinner. Scroll on my phone. Watch videos. Sleep. Repeat.

And honestly, sometimes that is necessary.

I think working full-time has made me understand why routines matter so much.

Without some kind of system, it becomes very easy to let days blur together. Work begins to dominate your schedule, your mental energy, and eventually your identity if you let it.

Because of that, I’ve been thinking more intentionally about how I spend the hours outside of work.

Even small things feel more important now:

going for a walk
getting outside
cooking something decent
writing things down
making progress on personal goals, even if it’s small

These things help me feel like my life is still mine.

I think that is the challenge I’m learning right now: figuring out how to work hard without letting work become the only thing I do.

I’m still adjusting.

Some days I feel productive and balanced. Other days I feel completely exhausted and just want to do absolutely nothing.

But maybe that is part of the process.

Working full-time has made me appreciate rest more, respect time more, and think harder about what I actually want to spend my energy on.

I’m tired, yes.

But I’m also learning a lot from it.